following blindly

I have tried out every single explanation for going, but in the end I have realised I just have to accept I don't really know. As I didn't really know why I went to Canada. As I didn't really know why I went to Vancouver. As I didn't really know why I packed my stuff and moved out of the Empress Hotel before knowing where I was moving to. I don't really know why I gave my money away and am going on this trip. I just know I'm going and that the thought brings me great joy!