because of love and light

At one point I thought a wounded heart would not love again.
At many points I doubted whether my expactions on love where reasonable.
(never been very reasonable about anything)

There is a certain love that only God can give us.
And there is a certain love that God only can give us through another.

Strange to think how even the most painful failures in love relationship can heal and grow. How even the worst pain can be left behind. "You won't heal until you love again", they said. "How do you love again without healing?" I replied.

How come what you think you want the most can be the worst for you?

Thankyou David for seeing already a long time ago, what I might not have seen before it was too late.
Thankyou for making the decisions I couldn't.
Thanks for remaning a friend.

Thankyou God for teaching me to love wholeheartedly no matter what, and for daring to love again no matter what.

I finally let go of the past, of David and much else, during the darkest time of the winter.

Months later the spring came, and with it, all that I have longed for.